So busy

Well its been pretty crazy around here. Between traveling for work and traveling to rehearsal, I've put a lot of mileage on my car and on my mind. I've been sticking to eating paleo and exercising but I'm having a very off week. I've been trying to add in a few new foods that have recently been deemed paleo, but they don't seem to be working with me. According to paleolifestyle.com, green peas are ok, so I made a delicious chicken stew with them in it and ate for dinner the one day and then for lunch yesterday. I've put on a half pound each of those days and I don't know why, except for the peas? In that same article, it said that white potatoes in moderation are now ok, but I don't think that is going to work for me. 

I did have kind of a cheat day on Saturday night, our dinner plans fell through times two and then ended up at a third restaurant that was Cajun but everything was fried. I had done a two hour booty camp/zumba class that morning so I decided that I could eat what I wanted and drink what I wanted. I partook in the sugariest most mind numbing drink and fried shrimp and hush puppies and didn't gain weight then, so why did the peas do it to me? I don't know. I just have to keep plugging away. Maybe I should stop weighing in EVERY DAY! Of course, when I've stopped weighing in in the past, I've gained weight. Or maybe I need to stop obsessing! 

I also have a new plan for working out for the next three months. I'm concentrating on running more and getting my times better for the 5ks I have coming up. The first one is in less than three weeks and will be during the run of the musical so hopefully I won't be completely wiped out from the night before, and then the next one will be over 4th of July in the HEAT of Texas. Its looking pretty good to get down the last 20 lbs before we move. Of course I haven't really lost anything this month and so I'm a month behind. When I weighed in on Sunday with Emily, I was 190.6 but at home I was 187.5 and now I'm 188.5.  I just want to be 170 by August 1st, is that too much to ask? Probably. 

Anywho, here are some of the foods I've made over the last week. The stew from Monday night can be found here at http://paleodietlifestyle.com/quick-and-creamy-chicken-stew/ and here is my picture. It was so good, but I don't know about those peas man. 

I also made, fresh from my garden fried green tomatoes. I made up my own recipe and this is what I used. 

4 green garden tomatoes (2 were roma, 2 were beefy)

1/2 cup almond flour

1/4 cup parmesan cheese (optional)

1 egg

oregano

salt and pepper

2 tbs olive oil

Heat up the oil and mix together the dry ingredients in a bowl and beat the egg in a second bowl. Dip all the tomatoes in the egg then dredge in the flour mixture. After the oil is heated, place in the dipped veggies and then turn over after 2 minutes. After another 2 minutes, remove from the oil and dry on a paper towel. Serve with home made paleo tomato ketchup. 

And finally last night, I made some awesome meatloaf! I found the recipe here at http://paleodietlifestyle.com/paleo-meat-loaf/ and it was so juicy and tender. I loved it and when I got home, the whole pan was gone. I also harvested some spinach from the garden and heated it up in a skillet with some olive oil. Here it is!

So yummy! It's been a good week for eating. Not for weight loss though, we'll get back on track though! I have faith in me.

awesome dinner tonight

I had a crazy busy day today. A full day of work and then shopping for two parties this weekend, as well as a meeting with my trainer to talk about my  new work out plan. All of this happened before getting home to make a nice home cooked paleo meal. I've been thinking about this meal all week and was so excited that I'd be sharing it with Cap finally, after his stint of night shifts. So I found this recipe for ginger marinated beef with a mango salsa topping here at http://everydaypaleo.com/2011/06/09/ginger-beef-with-mango-salsa/

And here is how mine came out!! So amazingly tasty and healthy and green! The salsa had a great kick and the meat was so tender from being on the grill. I even found some lettuce cups at the grocery store to top off the whole thing. I will definitely make this again. My semi paleo husband had his on whole wheat tortillas instead of the lettuce and was very pleased with the whole meal. I'm really craving something sweet right now though. I have a half pint of Soy Delicious Coconut milk vanilla bean ice cream in the fridge which is dairy and soy free so completely paleo. I think I shall indulge now. 

Tomorrow I've got a birthday party for little kids, cinco de mayo, and another friends celebration of a new job and drinking to deal with. I was going to make tomorrow a cheat day but I'm just doing so well that I don't think I can. Of course I'll have a glass of wine or two, but I think I'll do my best to stay paleo in my eating. I'm gonna go to a zumba fest/booty camp tomorrow for two hours in the morning, so maybe that will combat any damage I do with birthday cake... hey! I've done amazing for a month, I think I deserve some cake. :)

no go on the clo

So after a lot of thought and a split second lapse in judgement, I stuck by my guns and didn't start another cycle of clomid. I've felt like myself all week and even though John's been gone, I feel like there is less pressure between us. I've also not counted any calories and the weight seems to be coming off nicely. I had wanted to be at 189 by May 1st but I just needed an extra day and today I was 188.5! At the gym it said I was 187, but that was obviously wrong. 

The paleo is going really well. I've been hungrier lately so I've had to do the "fasting" thing because I haven't always had a healthier option on hand. Like today, I made some awesome three pepper pork loin and had it going on the grill all nice and carmelizing and then I came back and it was on fire. I could only get half of it sawed off as edible and then I had to leave really quickly for rehearsal. So I need to get more nuts and seeds and stuff thats portable and can just hang out in my car. Any other hints for nice paleo snacks? 

This weekend I'm writing a new plan for the last three months with Emily and its going to be mostly running which I hope we really get me nice and toned. I'm looking forward to really starting to see a new me and maybe this extra time will help me be ready to have the most well balanced pregnancy diet there could be.

trying trying trying

So I'm having some fluctuating thoughts today. None of the crazy circumstances of my life have changed in the last few days, and it has been nice to not wake up with a thermometer in the mouth each morning, but now I feel like I'm wasting time. This is all a part of the anxiety I am trying to escape by taking a few months off, but I'm wondering whether or not I want to try a half dose this month, 25 mg of the clomid and see how that goes. My doctor had wanted me to try that last month, but I wanted to make sure I ovulated so I was scared to. I have liked to be able to control my temper and thoughts without the medication so much though. Cap is still on the night shift and most days I only see him awake for about an hour so why try to fit sex in there? Of course that's over this weekend and baby making would go in to full tilt next week, but I still have rehearsals every night and work all day. Am I just setting myself up for more anxiety and failure. A friend told me over the phone to just stick to my guns. But then I think of being an older mother and it really scares me. Ugh. Well we are going to have a sit down during dinner tonight to make up our minds about the half dose. I'd have to start it tonight because its cycle day 5. Any advice?

Weight loss has seemed to halt too. I haven't lost anything and I'm maybe wondering if I'm eating enough. I am doing only one training session a week for the next few crazy months, but I am doing workouts on my own and I know I'm burning calories, but now I'm wondering if I'm maybe not taking enough in. But I eat whenever I'm hungry. I'm eating apples as I type this right now. I need to maybe try to write stuff down for a few days, but since I'm cooking and making all natural foods, its harder to keep track without nutrition labels. I know the whole idea of the diet is to not have to keep track, but I want to be fueling my body the best way I know how. I wanted to be at 189 today, May 1. But I'm still stuck at 191. I'm not gaining so maybe its just a plateau. I don't know how I could eat healthier though... 

My new workout plan is going to be running based because I want to get under 35 minutes running the 5k in June. My legs are feeling more sculpted but I still never feel thin. In fact I hated most of the pictures that were taken of me at work and at the lake this weekend. I don't see myself as any thinner even though I know I'm in smaller sizes. Today I pick up my cocktail dress for the play and will hopefully be in a large and not an xlarge . I'm gonna buy the one that fits me now because the show opens in 17 days and I don't anticipate dropping another size at the beginning, but am hoping it will be a little too big by the end of the run mid June. 

So here's a little humor for today. Also, if anyone has any advice on the clomid front, I'm all ears.